I spent most of today in a Vicodin hazed denial waiting for my oncologist to call. And she did. And it’s bone mets. In my sternum, my ribs and my spine. I am devastated. I am angry. I am frightened. And I guess I’m going to need more hats.
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August 13, 2012
throwslikeagirl74
18 responses to “Worst Monday ever.”
Jesse Elston
August 13th, 2012 at 20:18
I have plenty of hats. You can have one of mine. So sorry, good thoughts and prayers are with you!
naomi
August 13th, 2012 at 20:42
im so sorry Mrs. Nicole you are in my prayers and i will have my church pray for you and light a candle for you i have good memories with you and will never forget them ❤
Marly Bird
August 13th, 2012 at 20:49
I am praying for you Nicole. Love you much.
StarSpry
August 13th, 2012 at 20:50
I am sorry sorry to hear this, Nicole. I will keep praying for you and sending good vibes your way. I’d like to make a hat for you; any requests?
Lindsay
August 13th, 2012 at 21:24
For you, my friend, I will learn to knit. And I will cook. And I will clean. And I will take my niece and nephew on Aunt Lindsay adventures. And I will pray for healing. And I am here for you to talk to, lean on or whatever you or J need. Just say the word . . . I will call you tomorrow!
Emily B
August 13th, 2012 at 22:42
Thinking of to you my friend. Lots of love to you.
mainelyhopeful
August 14th, 2012 at 05:35
I’m sorry 😦 Praying for strength and healing
Leah Stein
August 14th, 2012 at 06:27
I am so sorry to hear about your mets diagnosis. I have been living with bone mets for over 2 years so I understand the depth of your fear and your sadness. It is overwhelming in the beginning but you come to a place that I wouldn’t call “acceptance” but I would call “ability to deal with this”.
Bone mets is treatable and is now referred to as a chronic condition. Those last 2 words have become my mantra.
One foot in front of the other.
If you want to talk to me more, let me know.
Leah
Stephanie
August 14th, 2012 at 06:37
I know that words are feeble, but the woman I know is strong, and will fight. You are amazing, and will overcome this, too.
Mandy Reeser
August 14th, 2012 at 06:47
I am so sorry to hear this, I was praying for a different diagnosis. It appears that my sister is about a year ahead of you on this journey, it sounds so familiar. She is doing very well, she had a bone biopsy and miraculously the pain in her chest went away and hasn’t come back. I will be helping Lindsay make you and your family meals and let me know if there is anything else you need.
Carrie
August 14th, 2012 at 08:18
Well this is bullshit! I’m angry and frightened too. And so so sorry, Nicole. Words cannot nearly convey. I am here whenever you want someone to listen and hear you. I love you and definitely tell me if you want or need ANYTHING.
Mary-Kay Tilden
August 14th, 2012 at 09:04
Ahhh, so sorry Nicole. I am praying for you, and your family.
Judy Newblom
August 14th, 2012 at 11:43
God bless you Nicole and your family. You are in our prayers. You beat it before, you can do it again. Sending love & hugs from WA.
Mandy Yates
August 14th, 2012 at 14:11
I’ve been thinking about you all day, I am so very sad, I feel your anger and hurt and I wish there was something that I could say or do to take the pain away. I’m sending you one of my very special cyber hugs, filled with love. xxx.
Debbie
August 14th, 2012 at 17:54
God has a plan. Even if you don’t understand. God has a plan. I will pray with all my heart for you.
clergygirl
August 14th, 2012 at 20:05
I don’t know what to say…I’m in shock. But know that we are still here for you…((hugs)) and many prayers!
Jenni
August 14th, 2012 at 23:40
Oh man, I am on vacation for two months and I come home and this is the first post I see. I am SO sorry. I wish there were anything practical I could do (like bring you some meals or chocolate, or REALLY BIG BOOTS). The only kind of hats I know how to knit are the toasty wool arctic winter type we wear here…I suppose one of those wouldn’t do you a whole lot of good huh. Not much of anywhere gets as cold as here. I make them to look like the northern lights though. If that would be a cheery sort of something, by all means, drop me an email and I’ll make you your own personalized aurora borealis hat KNIT UNDER THE FRAKKIN AURORA BOREALIS north of the arctic circle. It’s either that or seal oil, and the seal oil smells reeeeallly bad.
throwslikeagirl74
August 15th, 2012 at 00:51
Jenni you are so funny :). Seal oil. Heh.