My sister brought her Wii Fit over today. It’s said I was 45. I’m not actually sad about that. I figured it would say 50 something, so I’m 5 years younger than I thought I was. AND I’m only ten years older than I should be. I actually feel like that’s a reasonable goal. Been doing the Weight Watchers thing 3 weeks now. I’ve lost some. Not much, but I’ve always been a slow loser.
It’s funny how when you’re young and thin, you think that you’re fat. And when you’re fat you think, how’d I get here? And how can I get back to where I was when I thought I was fat?
I pretty much know how I got here. Friends with boys in college. As long as I ate less than they did, it seemed all right. Also, drinking with boys (and girls) in college. (See the eating thing.) I think I got such a skew idea of what I should be eating that I couldn’t tell when I was full anymore. Having kids didn’t help. Lunch is at 11. Even though none of my kids nap and don’t need to eat that early anymore, we tend to want to eat at 11. And then we’re starving by 3. Not conducive to good eating habits.
I am also contending with the effects of surgery and chemo. I didn’t gain any weight while on chemo, which is good. Unfortunately, what muscle I had has now been replaced with fat. I’m also missing a good portion of muscle on my left side. This was very apparent when I was making dinner tonight and couldn’t open the jar of garlic. After a few tries, I gave up and used garlic powder. That pissed me off a bit. Can’t even open a stupid jar of garlic.
So anyway, I’m trying to be healthier, and even though people say you should just strive for that, I’m striving to lose weight too. Losing 50 pounds cuts my cancer recurrence rate by 30 percent. That’s a pretty huge incentive.
February 9, 2009
throwslikeagirl74
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7 responses to “45”
Aftercancer
February 9th, 2009 at 18:55
Oh I feel for you. I’d be afraid to see what the Wii called me, maybe dead. I can’t open a jar to save my life. I hadn’t thought about the fact of muscle turning to fat but you’re so right. I’ve been trying weight watchers as well but I have a heck of a time justifying the money and the time for one pound a week.
Bonnie
February 9th, 2009 at 18:59
It guesses your age? I have GOT to get one.
If you ever need a workout buddy let me know. I hear that you can share trainers at APEX and that saves $$. And lately I go there and I have no idea how to work those confounded machines and I think that I might have to get a trainer to show me how to work them and then I may be able to take it from there.
Sorry to have missed you on Saturday. How did it go?
Shari
February 9th, 2009 at 19:26
If it makes you feel any better, the Wii told me that my age is 93. 🙂
cheryl stouff
February 9th, 2009 at 19:33
I am so proud of you. You have tackled all your obstacles head on, and now weight. It’s a tough one as well and always ongoing. Wishing you lots of luck and saying prayers for your success.
Laurie
February 10th, 2009 at 02:18
The wii fit told my ten year old son that he was 35. That hit him hard. We got ours on Sunday (after searching for weeks) and I have been too sick to care (although I am the one who wanted it) and scared of what it will tell me. 93 is looking good. 😉
And re “It’s funny how when you’re young and thin, you think that you’re fat. And when you’re fat you think, how’d I get here? And how can I get back to where I was when I thought I was fat?” Truer words were never spoken.
lydee
February 10th, 2009 at 07:30
never thought about losing muscle on one side, i’d have been mad about the garlic too.
sprucehillfarm
February 10th, 2009 at 12:05
I can’t open jars either! It is amazing how many muscules you loose in your chest when you have cancer! It pisses me off too :*