So it’s pretty clear from the MRI that the other areas of concern are a problem which makes my cancer multi-focal. The biopsy is cancelled for Monday and I now have a pre-op appointment with my surgeon. Basically this means the lumpectomy is off the table, but I kind of figured that from our first visit with the surgeon. So Mastectomy here we come! I’m thinking of delaying reconstruction so I can focus on recovery, but I reserve the right to change my mind.
I’m actually pretty ok with all this. If I learned anything from going to the plastic surgeon, it’s that my sense of self worth doesn’t come from my outer appearance. Sure, I like to look nice, but whether I have a real breast, a reconstructed breast, or a prosthesis I can throw in the dishwasher doesn’t matter to me all that much. (I’m not really sure you can throw them in the dishwasher, but wouldn’t that be cool?!? ) The good news is the right side is free of cancer so it gets to stay. You go right side!

7 responses to “Ok. Change of plan.”
Cathy R.
January 31st, 2008 at 15:30
YAY RIGHT SIDE!
And for the record, I promise to love you and make you the exception to my “no assymetric” rule.
(inside joke, folks, I’m not being mean…)
Hugs!
becky
January 31st, 2008 at 18:45
You sound great. I’m so glad.
Yarn Thing
January 31st, 2008 at 20:46
Just think, with the left boob gone that just leaves that much more room for you to stuff yarn in your bra so your husband can’t see it when you bring it home! (trying to be positive here!)
I am so happy that the right one is okay!!! So, when is the surgery so we all can be ready with the prayers?
xoxox
Marly
Betsy
January 31st, 2008 at 21:49
What a great idea Marly!! Nicole, think of the possibilities and all of the contraband you can smuggle into your home. I don’t think a knitting purse would fit in your bra though. Please keep us posted. We are all sending positive energy your way and know that you will beat this stupid cancer.
Mary-Kay
February 1st, 2008 at 06:51
The right side looked better anyway!
Yes, I checked it out. ha!
Ok, we need dates my friend. I’m glad it’s not anywhere else…
StarSpry
February 1st, 2008 at 10:10
Glad to hear the right side is ok!
Hugs!!!
Kari S.
February 1st, 2008 at 12:13
okay.. i about choked to death about the dishwasher comment! I will keep you in my prayers and hope the surgery goes well.